... of wanting more

rather nonchalantly she told me that he got engaged to someone his parents knew. but i could hear the hesistation, the feeble tone in that voice behind those letters that were being typed on the screen.. wasnt one typically of hurt, yet filled with a certain hollowness of being left behind.... although she wasnt in love with him, neither did she want it to work .... she still felt something was slipping away. a sense of belonging that would now have to fade ... it slowly hit, it might not be the same anymore. marriage would definitely change it for him ... and inevitably for her... but why should it, i ask? dont you have a claim on the past, if the future isnt yours?

in an uncanny way, even when you dont want something, you are left with wanting more of it.... like one of those rare dark chocolate moments.. even when your satiated, you want just that one extra piece ... oh well.... ;)

im still trying to desperately understand the politics of an 'oh well' moment, and then again, maybe it's not that simple ....